(Warning, I have issues and this Journal entry may contain endless swears and descriptions of violent acts... it's impossible to tell cause I just type as I go along in these... If u don't wanna read that then turn back. The name of the Journal is self explanatory to be honest so it's not like u need to read this anyway.)
OK so like, I don't know what is wrong with me. I've been feeling either really happy, really sad, or really pissed for a while and idk what to do.
Like wake up in the morning feeling like
NO! Just be real happy that it disturbs everyone then later on I was like pissed at life and had to go break shit outside... IDK I JUST DON'T FUCKING KNOW! PLUS LIKE, I HAVE DONE NONE OF MY SCHOOL WORK AND YOU KNOW WHAT!? I DON'T INTEND TO EITHER! I DON'T FUCKING FEEL LIKE DOING IT! I'm not making stuff for a while cause like... I DON'T KNOW! I'm like I just don't want to do anything! and I randomly destroyed one of my sketch books while I was mad at nothing so I'm not gonna draw cause I'll just rip up a whole 'nother book again... Then last night apparently I lost two hours of memory. After the first hour I apparently Skyped people about it but then about another hour later I had no memory of the first missing hour and I missed a second hour. Then there is a cut THAT I DIDN'T MAKE on my arm and it's not like a normal cut it's like... idk... like a burn/cut at the same time! and there's a mark on my other arm and I can't sleep at night and I don't know why! I have violent thoughts of murdering people for no reason and I've dreamed of being a mass murderer since I was a kid. YES NOW YOU KNOW! SHUT THE FUCK UP! I have thoughts that I can't control of me like just ripping peoples' heads off and pulling out their bones and stuff! Hell I want to put gun torrents in my yard so anyone who walks by will get shot and killed. I forgot where I was going with this dumb ass entry but whatever. I'm taking a break from making stuff.